17: the age I was when my mother died.
31: the age we were when we had our daughters.
5: Fa's age (almost)
365: the days I think about leaving too soon, like my mother did.
12: the years I have left with her (according to the math).
0: the probability I'll die the same age my mother was of the same disease.
67,991,345,999,672: times I day I think about this.
infinity squared: the love in my heart for my daughter plus the sadness I feel for my mother plus the guilt I feel for even the slightest chance I may leave her motherless.